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27 February 2013 @ 01:45 am
The Fox's Cradle Epilogue  
I just realized my previous post was full of tense errors UGH. Will go back and edit them when I can. Meanwhile, I've read through all your comments for the previous chapter and goodness, haha, seems like everyone can't accept the ending at all! Well, I hope this epilogue, written from A-hyun's perspective, will give you a proper closure and come to terms with how Gashiyeon played out :) For me, this part was the one that really, really made me cry. Because it makes you remember.

Kim Jaejoong
26 September

In the morning when I saw my father commit suicide, I wasn't really affected at all. It only made me remember that terrifying scene I saw when I was little.

Why did he choose to kill himself on my birthday? It made me rather unhappy, actually.

Maybe I don't have a say in this since I'm only able to celebrate my birthday because of him. But really, must you choose this day, the birthday of your one and only daughter, to take your own life? I don't understand this.

Big Appa (Jinho) looked really sad, but he didn't forget to celebrate my birthday, and he gave me a present that he'd prepared way in advance. Big Umma, who's always been like a real umma to me, cooked miyeok guk (seaweed soup) for me as well today - the day I mourn the passing of my father when it's supposed to be a day for everyone to congratulate me as I turned 17.

They say it's bad luck to cry on your birthday, and I'm a really proud girl, so even when I heard the news I refused to let myself cry on this day. My day.

They've allowed me to bring all my luggage over to Big Appa's house. After tidying up my new room, I went back to my old house with Big Appa to retrieve my father's belongings from the study. All those documents that contained his handwriting, and items that held his touch, all of them were placed neatly one by one in boxes. It's the first time I'm doing this, so the feeling's very mysterious. Big Appa asked me to clear the desk since it would be easier, and so I started lifting the huge volumes of books and placing them in the box at my feet.

"A photo album?"

As I was cleaning up, I found a thick and worn photo album. It's probably been flipped through many times, so the leather's scuffed and old. Somehow, my instincts told me that this is no ordinary album, so I carefully turned the pages as my heart skipped a beat.

It's a photo album that contained pictures of father and him.... No, they're the memories of father and that man.

In the photographs, they look about the same age as I am right now. I'd grown up accustomed to my father wearing a constant, gloomy expression on his face, but in these photos he looked as if he was bursting with energy. Someone had cut the photo into half before, but it had been meticulously taped back. Strange. It's all because of this man that I was able to calmly accept my father's death.

He was really, very beautiful... Especially when he was young.

The sight of him smiling at me with those sad eyes as he lay dying was etched deeply into my memories when I was 5.

Father couldn't forget him. Even after he had stopped breathing, father held his cold and stiffened body close and wept for a really long time. And then, he carried this grieve with him as he lived on, until recently.

I heard he took his life the same way as that man did, by cutting his wrist. They were all such fools.

I stole a photograph of them smiling as if they hadn't a care in the world, and stuffed it into my pocket when Big Appa wasn't paying attention. And then, I closed the album. I didn't feel particularly sad, nor was I exceptionally happy. It's an extraordinary sort of feeling.

Cleaning up the study and leaving the room felt utterly ethereal, and I turned back to look at the half-closed door. All of a sudden, the image of him and my father standing together, clearly and deeply in love, flashed across my eyes dazzling and radiant. Maybe it's a trick of the sunlight. I immediately closed the door behind me.

Jaejoong... Kim Jaejoong.

At the same time I remembered his name as well. I wonder why I couldn't recall his name a single time before this.

Back in the car, I transferred the photograph that I stole into my wallet. And then, once more, I remembered how my father's wrinkled face looked so peaceful as he slept at night, dreaming and calling out his name softly.

Kim Jaejoong.

youresofine96youresofine96 on February 26th, 2013 06:59 pm (UTC)
This is my first time writing, but I want to thank you for translating this. I've been looking for this a long time, and I've been reading your translations for months now! Thank youuuu!!!!

This is just sad, but yet so beautiful :(

Edited at 2013-02-26 06:59 pm (UTC)
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:36 pm (UTC)
Hello! You're very welcomed :) Thank you for reading all the stuff I churned out! <3
redsky6002redsky6002 on February 26th, 2013 11:29 pm (UTC)
ohhhhh goshhhh....
A Hyun's POV..
she's rlly a tough girl..
his father decide to suicide on her bday, it's so cruel.. but she's tough enough..
and the photobook .. omg.. that appear again..
ahhh so crying..
they're happy and free in their young days..
and yeaaaaahh jaejoong is indeed beautiful, A Hyun ah..

ahhh so sad,, but rlly rlly thank you again for this...
P.S : living life to the fullest.. ^^
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:37 pm (UTC)
Ahyun is really something! I like this girl :D

Yep! No regrets! (Y) Thank you for reading, as always! :)
onewaytrackkonewaytrackk on February 27th, 2013 04:22 am (UTC)
So bittersweet.
I honestly feel very sorry for a-hyun......
Yunho and jaejoong... Sigh.

Thanks for translating!!!!!!!!
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:38 pm (UTC)
I think she's really made of some strong stuff!

You're welcomed :) Thank you for reading!
putry1809putry1809 on February 27th, 2013 06:18 am (UTC)
My yunjae heart is crying... Its hurt and crazy but also so pretty... I hope yunjae are happy irl no commit suicide like this...:'( . Anw big thanks for translating this fic *bow*
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:38 pm (UTC)
Haha I don't think anyone will ever be this deeply and madly in love :D Thank you for reading!! <3
jessewhtjessewht on February 27th, 2013 06:24 am (UTC)
you are right. i cried even more in this epilogue.
this fucking hurts.
no wonder Gashiyeon was made into a hardcover. i would treasure one too if i could have it. especially this translated one.

Yunho should read this again (if he already did) just so he'll remember what is life without a Kim Jaejoong.
now excuse me i want to re read it and torture my heart again.
/hugging you tight refusing to let go, feeling grateful/
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:41 pm (UTC)
SEE? SEE? It's like some magic, this stuff that Maio writes <3 I wished I had done more justice to the story with my translation though ):

Haha I'm going to start translating all the way from reduced horizon now! Just so this community will be complete :)

Thank you for the lovely comment and for reading this! <3
pearturtle: akame KApearturtle on February 27th, 2013 12:51 pm (UTC)
OMG thank you very much for finishing this!!
in between your busy RL activities ><
i'm feeling so thankful
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:41 pm (UTC)
no worries! i just can't leave you guys alone hahaha all of you emotional bunch of readers :D thanks for reading! <3
(no subject) - pearturtle on March 1st, 2013 12:33 am (UTC) (Expand)
sobi_chan on February 27th, 2013 12:56 pm (UTC)
Okay now let me cry.
It hurts so much. I knew from reviews years ago that Gashiyeon had a sad and tragic ending, but i didn't expect so much angst. And yet it is so beautifully written. Mao is a genius, and you are an angel for translating this. I love youuu for that <3
In one of your posts, you said you were going to translate other yunjae famous K-fics, i am really expecting them ^^ I will come here everyday to check if there is any new update!
See you soon :)
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:43 pm (UTC)
Omalah I hope you're ok! Thank you for the lovely comment <3 yeah I might! If I can actually find chinese translations of them :B But for now I'll be focusing on finishing up the chapters 1-9 of thorn lily as well as reduced horizon, so this community will have the complete set of gashiyeon :)

Thank you for reading!
4evexd4everxd on February 27th, 2013 02:00 pm (UTC)
TT_TT WAEEEEEEEEE?! MY HEART HURTS! OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE IT ENDED ;O; DEHYUJEHUJEDHUJHUJDHHUJHUJDEDHS A-hyunnnnnn you tough gurllllll >.< I feel so proud of you! Yunho commited suicide the same way TT^TT It is better this way, because they can't without each other <3 Yes Jaejoong is beautiful ;^; The photo, the illusion *sobbing forever*
it hurts everywhereeeeeee ;A; I love this so much, I am gonna treasure for ever in my heart <3
Thank for translating !You are the best! <3
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:45 pm (UTC)
AWWW that was so sweet <3<3<3 I'm glad you loved it and I love you too! For reading all these (honestly quite crappy) translations <3
SHINeesoupshineesoup on February 27th, 2013 02:34 pm (UTC)
Wow that was...something else. Gashiyeon is really a terrifying story! I'm so glad I got a chance to read it so thank you so much for all your efforts! :)
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading, too! :D Come back in about a month or two and you might just catch me translating other famous fics! :)
(no subject) - shineesoup on March 16th, 2013 11:45 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Annunnamed_flower on February 27th, 2013 03:41 pm (UTC)
Oh so this really finishes like this. T_T I'm sorry I've never commented here before but I was stalking your every update. Thank you for translating Gashiyeon.
potecchipotecchi on February 27th, 2013 03:46 pm (UTC)
It's alright! I'm really glad you liked it :) Thanks for reading! <3
me_cloverme_clover on February 28th, 2013 02:26 am (UTC)
Big hug 4 u...
Though i dont fave a hyun (sorry), but i still love to read this part n the way she describe jaejoong n yunho love, n the way she said 'kim jaejoong'. I dont cry though it was very sad ending coz somehow i consoled myself that yunho was on his way to jaejoong n together they will find their own paradise. Huh.. Fic that worth to b read...
Potecchi, thanks for translating this story till the end. So kind of u although u have a busy life (u r rite?)
Tense of error? Which part of it? Plz do tell me if u gonna re translating it or what so ever so that i could reread it again.
Love this story, the way maio describe things were so different. I wish i could read his/her other story. Must b proud himself since the whole yunjae fan craving for this story...
Big hug for u, thanks..
potecchipotecchi on March 1st, 2013 01:34 pm (UTC)
Re: Big hug 4 u...
Heyhey no it's nothing big haha I just swapped some past and present tenses by accident! I'm a very sad and busy college kid ;_;

Thank you for the really sweet comment <3
kurokamekurokame on February 28th, 2013 01:29 pm (UTC)
OMG I'm so fucked up.

Thanks for translating all these chapters dear. I really really appreciate it! <3
potecchipotecchi on March 1st, 2013 01:34 pm (UTC)
OMG chill bro/sis. Keep calm and carry on :D
sukidesuusukidesuu on February 28th, 2013 02:46 pm (UTC)
when jaejoong suicide?
when A-Hyun 5 or 17?
is Yunho suicide right after Jaejoong died??
potecchipotecchi on March 1st, 2013 01:35 pm (UTC)
Jaejoong killed himself when Ahyun was 5. Yunho waited until Ahyun turned 17, and then Yunho committed suicide too.
aya_sakine on February 28th, 2013 09:17 pm (UTC)

T T I arrived late, but I cried at the end.

Yunhobun ~ I do not know, I'm so sad to know that the end is so tragic, and I just want to see a romantic side but...A-Hyun give me pain... she who has been a sad day for her birthday.

Gashiyeon changed many things in my mind, about love and about everything in life, so I really appreciate that you've translated ^ ^ seriously sorry if it ever caused you inconvenience ~ but I'm really grateful to have found your livejournal, because it gave me a major reason to be here lol seriously, thanks ♥.

Whatever it is you're going to do from now on, dear potecchi, I'll be here supporting you ~
potecchipotecchi on March 1st, 2013 01:36 pm (UTC)
Your comments always make my day :D Thank you!! I'm really glad that you like my work :) <3
anemone_seaanemone_sea on March 1st, 2013 01:50 am (UTC)
Can't enough T_____T COL (cry out loudly)
so, this is really an ending ;_;
still I can't accept this anymore
Jung appa suicided too? oh, poor ;;_;;)

you did good job, pottechi! you finished it so well <3 thankyou!!
potecchipotecchi on March 1st, 2013 01:37 pm (UTC)
Yes he did! Haha this is the true end to everything :) but at least they're always be together now!

jijikittyjijikitty on March 6th, 2013 08:45 pm (UTC)
My tears keep falling while typing this. this story is really heartbreaking but il say its really a masterpiece.thanks for writing this .two thumbs up.this is my first time reading ur work i heard ur famous thats y my friend recommened this to me since im a newbie also in reading YJFF.
ㅈㅈmooneunim on March 7th, 2013 08:49 am (UTC)
so here's the end of infamous tvxq fanfic in korea. both dead..
personally, i'm not a yunjae shippers. there's a time i really against any shippers' activity. i usually don't read yunjae fanfic. because i heard gashiyeon is tremendously popular in korea, i decided to read the translation, though i already know yunho and jae will dead.
words can't describe how i admire maio created the complicated characters: yunho and jaejoong. she's a genius one! as a jaejoong biased, i really love his character in gashiyeon. i don't pity him, and yunho too.
i kinda attracted with a-hyun's character. she brings suh-hee's cold aura in herself. she was born to face the truth about his 'parents'.. how i wish i was a-hyun's lol.

once again, well done~!! thank you very much for translating gashiyeon ^^;;
potecchipotecchi on March 19th, 2013 04:54 pm (UTC)
a-hyun is really #likeaboss haha! thanks for reading it!! ^^
takemydreamtakemydream on March 12th, 2013 02:18 pm (UTC)
potecchipotecchi on March 19th, 2013 04:53 pm (UTC)
j1n_j1nj1n_j1n on March 12th, 2013 02:52 pm (UTC)
I've been reading this fic for a long time, and have been looking forward that someone would finally finish translating it! Yesterday I found by accident your journal and you have no idea how happy I was to notice you've translated all the parts. So I want to thank you for all your hard work!!! THANK YOU!!!
This fic was so heart-breaking yet so beautiful. Yunho and JaeJoong's love was something that others couldn't understand.. As I read the ending, I got a big urge to cry --not in a long time have I felt like this while reading a fic!! Tears are still in my eyes, but I can't let them out because my roommate would think I'm weird XD Must re-read the whole fic from Reduced Horizon till Fox's Cradle when I'm alone so I can let my feelings out freely LOL!
I hope you don't mind that I added both this account and "The YunJae Club" to my friendlist! I noticed you've been translating "Poison Bird" -- that's a fic I've wanted to read since a long time ago but no-one had translated it into English, soo... I'm gonna start reading it next!! Are you going to translate other fics too? I think your translation for is very good!
potecchipotecchi on March 19th, 2013 04:53 pm (UTC)
Omo your comment really made my day! Sorry for the lack of updates so far ): Thank you so much for reading through all my work! Yep I noticed haha :D I do want to start on other fics, but currently I'm facing 2 problems: 1)I won't have time till my exams are over which is... end-April and 2)I'm not sure what else would be good. Any suggestions? I'm looking at this fic called "July" at the moment. Seems promising, but nothing fantastic :/
takemydreamtakemydream on March 13th, 2013 02:10 am (UTC)
There's one part I don't understand. When Ahyun is talking about her father committing suicide on her birthday, she says "because my birthday happened to be the day that person died so he didn't have a choice". Who is "that person"? Is it her mom, since her mom died the day she was born? I don't understand...
potecchipotecchi on March 19th, 2013 04:43 pm (UTC)
That's a really good question. I have a feeling I might have mistranslated this part! Didn't really understand what's going on there haha! I've edited it, so I hope it makes more sense now?
dbsgheidbsghei on March 31st, 2013 06:55 pm (UTC)
The fact that Yunho waited until A Hyun was 17 [i read in your comment] ;o; this gives me chills and all that feels uggghh :s i can't love this angst more.. this just breaks my heart but at the same time i feel like a hyun will have good future ahead of her..or at least.

Again, thanks for translating <3

Edited at 2013-03-31 06:56 pm (UTC)
potecchipotecchi on April 19th, 2013 02:31 am (UTC)
yeah i think she will! she sounds like a strong girl :) thanks for reading! :D
lola_xoxo92lola_xoxo92 on April 8th, 2013 07:18 pm (UTC)
Thank you for translating this. It's the best YunJae story I have ever read.
potecchipotecchi on April 19th, 2013 02:32 am (UTC)
thank you for reading! :D
Renata SoriaRenata Soria on April 23rd, 2013 06:09 pm (UTC)
oh thanks for translating... I want to cry but the twrs don't come... how can someone make such a beautiful and yet, so sad history? so perfect >< i can't describe with words what i am feeling, thanks for translating u.u
shinkimonkyunjae_mochichi on May 11th, 2013 05:09 am (UTC)
this just broke my heart. Callous and fast, her words about them had no touch and yet they did enough for me to cry my eyes out once more. I didn't want to read this part, I was scared even more with your warning at the beginning and now I'm this depressed mess of tears and snot... it's been a while since my YJ made cry like this. My heart feels kicked and needs nurturing T_____T

on the other hand I can't never thank you enough for going through this with us and so quickly, I waited too long, but finally Gashiyeon is not longer a mistery that makes me sigh for I couldn't read it. I feel so contented, even if it aches righ now to have read it at last because it is that beautiful piece of art. A real tragedy. They both died and just thinking of Yunho enduring his lost of Jae for 12 years, it kills me. Too much. T-T

I wonder if our YunJae cried when they read this. I hope they did, but immediately stormed into each other's room and hugged for hours.

I love you very much for this <3333
yunjaeismineyunjaeismine on July 3rd, 2013 11:46 am (UTC)
OMG, this is just beautiful. So Yun Ho followed him after all. Thank you so much for translating this. I really REALLY liked this and I'm glad I clicked this story last night. Thank you so much!